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Week 17 on my Gratitude Journal

GRATEFUL FOR… Being happy and content right now. I love this life. So grateful! and for being open to the splendor of not knowing, making it up as I go along. Merrily, merrily, merrily… life is but a sacred dream.  (4/24)   Today, I release the need to know, and to figure everything out, to have all the answers all the time. I embrace the present moment and trust that I am being carried along in the Divine flow. I am grateful to just be. (4/25)   The almost incomprehensible thing that created the galaxies, and what is beyond them. That benevolent thing, the source of all that is, that energy which is only love all the time. I wish I could find a name that moves beyond gender and personification because God is so much bigger than that. (4/26) I’m reminded of my tag line, “gratitude moves mountains.”  Holy cow does it ever! The more I immerse myself in gratitude, things expand. Wonderful things happen, ideas come to me, I’m more creative, loving and …

Spring Cleaning and the Many Distractions

As I cleaned and discarded useless stuff I’ve collected over the years, I came across my old cassette tape player and what was left of my old cassette tape collection (I’m totally digital by now, but didn’t realize I had kept a few). I cleaned the player, tried the knobs and one fell off 😀 but I got it back to working again. I sat back and listened to Jewel, Sarah McLachlan, and Deep Forest while drinking my ice-cold tea. Jewel’s songs didn’t sound depressing as they used to. Nor did Sarah McLachlan’s. Deep Forest reminded me how excited I was those days to hear ethnic music being mixed with techno. That was before God created club dj’s. Deep Forest music is not a “mix”, it’s a merging of two different times, two cultures, two expressions. That was what their music was about. Eventually, I’m throwing all these magnetic and analog stuff out, (erm… but not my art stuffs, yet!) I wonder who still uses cassette tapes.. As I listened to Four Seasons as interpreted …

A Thousand Paper Cranes

Grateful for a friend’s story which reminded me to write something I’ve been wanting to share here but hadn’t felt ready to do. Last year my spiritual teacher died. It devastated me. In my grief, I felt spiritually anchorless, unsafe and unsure. She was a teacher who insisted she wasn’t a teacher but who taught me my major lessons, how to stand up to life but have confidence in its flow. When I first met her, I had to beg her to take me as her student, and finally she took three of us in, while grumbling the whole time that she wasn’t our bloody teacher. She was funny and loud, but oftentimes, soft-spoken, articulate and wise, and on rare occasions, ruthlessly decisive in her compassion. She kept pushing us to our limits but we always had lots of laughs with our practice. A year after she’d been teaching me, she sent me away and cut off our connection because in her view, I was getting complacent and wasn’t learning in her presence anymore. She explained, …

Walking As If In A Dream

I dreamt about walking. I was walking downtown, looking for the Cathay Pacific Air office so I could get my reserved plane ticket. I was walking, but wasn’t sure where their office was. And I thought, I am walking aimlessly. Then I was walking at the airport. I was carrying my bag, and I was walking with many people, we were walking inside the building, ready to board our plane. It was an international flight. I was “mindful” of my walking, I could see my feet walking, other people’s feet walking, I could hear everyone’s footsteps as we walked on the carpeted floor. I could see everything disappearing from my view as I walked past them. I was walking, and I thought, I have seen this in my mind before. And now it’s happening. This afternoon, I was reading an article “Making Each Moment Meaningful”. I was dozing off, until I realized that I was reading about walking. What woke me up was when I read this part: Walking As If In A Dream. I …

Zen Self-Help Tips from Zen Miracles

I always find Zen books refreshing to read. They speak simply with as little words possible, yet conveying the truths to the reader clearly. Zen Miracles is one such book. Even if I didn’t learn anything new about Zen, it is a welcomed encouragement to the practice. Zen teachings after all are learned not from a teacher, but from oneself. I recommend this book for its simple exercises in Zen living. I find them highly amusing, mostly because they always target my laziness right on the spot. At the end of the book, some guidelines were given as companions to living. I’m going to repeat them here, mostly to show you that this is a kind of self-help Zen book. Do not lean on others. Do not lean on anything. Keep your back straight at all times. Your spine connects heaven and earth. Honor it. Loneliness is an unwillingness to communicate freely with all of creation. Remedy this. Do not puff yourself up and put others down. We are all treading on the same earth. …

Stillness: Its Beauty And Power

Today, I am grateful for the beauty and peace that I’ve found in the gift of stillness. Stillness is different from solitude, different from loneliness, different from turning off the TV, radio, phones, or stereo or speaking softly. Stillness is a place you can find in the desert or in the mountains. You can find it when you’re alone or when you’re in the midst of peace. You can find stillness wherever you are, whatever you’re going through. Stillness is a place within you. Slow down. Breathe deeply. Get quiet. Become familiar with stillness. Take time to learn its power. From that place of stillness, the right action will emerge and you will find your next step. From that place of stillness, you can move into the present moment. There you will find your power, and there God will find you. ~ Melody Beattie And in light of this, I am sharing a couple of digital postcards that I’ve created. You can download, print, and send to family and friends, or you can keep them, …

My Seven Days of Gratitude

Hello everyone! today, I would like to share to you my practice of gratitude. This attitude has immensely taught me to be more conscious of myself and allowed myself to accept what simply is. And I am thankful for this practice because it has made my 2016 a most amazing year. Grateful for good friends and conversation that is real, vulnerable, honest, and inspiring. Grateful to reflect on the past years since and see how much positive growth and change I have made in my life. Grateful for those teachers and healers and friends that have supported my growth… you know who you are, to whom I owe so much personal growth and a whole cadre of new, amazing, soul-aligned friendships. Grateful to be more in touch with my feelings – crying, expressing anger, etc. – and holding myself gently, rather than immediately jumping to some trick to get me out of feeling. Grateful for meditation to be such a lighthouse in my life. And for the wonderful people I know, choosing to connect rather than remain cocooned …